Bummer

I'm still a bum. I love/enjoy reading blogs. I enjoy reading stories. But I myself can't really blog even if I have all the time in the world.

Wondering why? Well, what do i have to blog about if i'm just here? No new experience, no story to tell, no anything.

Hope that'll change soon. Hope I will be able to share some fictitious stories that I have made. :) My endless reinvention should take effect in a couple of days.. See ya'll around. :)

Tipo.

Sumali ako dati sa isang text clan out of boredom. Nagtanong ang isa ng Top3 list. Ang isang category is Top3 male celebrities na gusto.

I answered Victor Basa and Enchong Dee without any second thought. Third was James Reid, but he's too young and too innocent and straight for my taste. :)

Sabi nila my answer says a lot about what my type is among men. And I said yes. :) Hindi naman kailangang kasing artistahin nila. Ang gusto ko lang ay lean, smart at hindi madaldal. :)

now, its fairly simple right? Then why the hell am i single?!?!?! X(

HIATUS :)

i want to blog, but i dont really blog. :) i want to write stories, but i dont. :) i want to post and post, but i dont. Is hiatus my middle name? Lol.

Nagsisisi. :(

Ilang taon na ang lumipas. Ilang panahon na ang nagdaan pero na-stuck parin ako sa past. F*ck. I'm actually crying inside. F*ck. I f*cking hate my pride! I fucking hate my guts. Boohoo. Ba't ganon? Now i question myself why i keep on reading love stories. I hate realizing na may precious person akong iniwan at hindi binigyan ng chance kahit gusto ko. Yes, there was closure. Now, i just keep questioning myself kung bakit ganun naging decisions ko. Hayyyy. Stupid love. :(

I want to stop..

I want to stop.. BREATHING. :( Seriously depressed right now. Full of negative ideas, full of sadness, bored to death, heavily irresponsible. I know i need some help, but i don't want to speak up. I am not into the idea of sharing my thoughts. If i just suicide easy, i wouldn't have a problem. :( Good bye world! :(

You. Yes you. 01

Change format. :) Starting somewhat anew. Anyway, i feel sick. I feel sleepy. But i am still awake 'cause i'm watching KDrama My Sassy Girl/Delightful Girl Choon Hyang. :( I LOVE the leads. I love the plot. And I need their story right now. Nauubos na ang sweetness sa katawan ko. Nauubos na ang fun and excitement. It's a little too fake. And KDramas lang ang tanging solusyon sa kakulangang iyon. Yes, mababaw. But, what could I do? Not like i'm in a relationship para magkaroon ng daily supply ng tamis! (Oh, di ba? Oh so bitter sounding na?) Hayyyy. Me and my relationshit problems. :((( Thanks for reading. Will need to go back to regular programming! :( -J

Post 4. Basyang

Dear you, Do you know Basyang? Most likely, PAG-ASA named this fuckin' storm that is hitting Manila from Lola Basyang the story teller. Talk about irony? One that would make you fall asleep soundly, while the other will not even make you wince due to fear! Hey Basyang, you are sooo mahangin. Sobrang lakas ng hangin mo, there's no more electricity sa buong Manila. Yes, it isn't hot anymore, but how could we sleep knowing that we might wake up in another place cause you might take us with you din! Talk about grabe. :| We love bagyo, our country will definitely love you.. Please, just please don't leave too much casualties. That'll be heartbraking! We aren't even fully over Ondoy. :(

Beep, beep. -J

Dear you. Post 3. Immature.

Dear you, nagkita kami kanina ng ibang friends ko. Realized one thing that i know nuon pa. Oh, make that two things! One, is that i'm loveless. Actually made me laugh cause it had been a fact for quite some time now. Years actually. Second it that i'm immature. :) Til now, i haven't really considered it as a problem cause wala namang papalag pa eh. Kaya sabi ng friend ko kanina.. "Will you be interested in older people?" Sabi ko, oo naman. Siya, "Like, mature ones.. Para ma-even out yung childishness mo?" I answered with a quick laugh actually. Totoo kasi! Oh, kailan ba yang mature na yan? Hahaha.

Beep, beep. -J :)

Dear you. Post 2. Babad.

Dear you, you made me happy, you made sad. Yes, that was at the same time. (Bummer right?) But, what could i do? I'm so interested in you. I know my limits.. You are straight, and i'm gay. Can only love you from afar. Can only appreciate you when you're near. :)) Why are you so likable kasi e! (Yes, i'm blaming you. Hahaha.) I actually hate me for liking you, cause i'm dreaming an impossible dream. (Sigh.) Anyway, wala naman akong magawa e.. The only thing i could do now is look at your fb profile, drool on you pics, wait for updates though i know you are offline, and sigh. pathetic me. :)

Beep, beep. -J ;)

Dear you. Post 1.

Dear you, i am sad. Tinamaan na naman ng depression. It has been a month and 4 days since bumalik ako sa pagiging bum. Truth is, i want to be a nurse badly. :( Bad enough, you can't be a staff nurse in a hospital if you don't have contacts. And i.. DON'T have any. :( 2008 graduate and passer ako. It's already 2010! :(( Hay. Depressing. Besides mot having work, got one more problem. Love life. Been like this for 5 years? Need some change. Help.


Beep, beep. -J ;)

First post.

Dear oh dear,

I watched the season premiere of Vampire Diaries of CW the other day. Was really, really itching to have a blog that i could maintain. Nag-meet yung dalawang thought. You'll get what I am trying to say if napanood mo ang Vampire Diaries. HAHA.

Anyway.. Really wishing I will be able to maintain this blog. :))

Beep! Beep! -J :)